Cauliflower Buffalo "Wings"

As you all know, I've been eating healthy. That's right, cutting all that gross stuff out of my life and working on my body. (And boy would you be surprised by the outcome so far, I feel GREAT!)

I haven't gotten the chance to post many recipes on here that I have tried so this is the perfect opportunity. I've been craving chicken lately but I'm going for foods more on the lighter side...but I'll never forego flavor!

Thanks to Pinterest, I found a healthy compromise. Spicy, crispy wings made from what? CAULIFLOWER. That's right, the little white veggie!

Cauliflower Buffalo "Wings"

INGREDIENTS:

• 1 head cauliflower 
• 1 cup 1% milk 
• 3/4 cup whole wheat flour 
• 1 tablespoon garlic powder 
• 1 tablespoon butter 
• 1/2 cup Frank's Red Hot Sauce 
• 1/2 cup blue cheese dressing (recipe below)

INSTRUCTIONS:

Preheat oven to 450 Degrees. Trim the head of cauliflower into appetizer sized bites and set aside. In a bowl stir together milk, flour and garlic powder. Dip each piece of cauliflower into the batter and allow the extra batter to drip off. Place on a greased baking sheet. Spray the tops of the florets with cooking oil. Bake for 18 minutes. 

Melt the butter in a saucepan over low heat and add the Frank's hot sauce and stir. Toss cooked cauliflower pieces with the sauce. Put back on cookie sheet and bake for 5 to 7 more minutes in the oven. Remove and serve with a side of Blue Cheese Dressing. 

Blue Cheese Dressing

INGREDIENTS:

• 1/2 cup maytag blue cheese 
• 1/2 cup english stilton 
• 1 cup low-fat buttermilk 
• 2 tablespoons olive oil 
• 1 tablespoon fresh lemon juice 
• 1 Tablespoon worcestershire sauce 
• 1/2 teaspoon garlic powder
• 1/4 teaspoon salt 
• 6-8 grinds of fresh pepper 

INSTRUCTIONS:

Let both cheeses come to room temperature. In a medium bowl add the room temperature cheese and smash with a spoon until semi smooth with a few chunks. Add the remaining ingredients. Stir together until combined. Transfer to a container with a tight seal and refrigerate until ready to use. 

My testimony of Cystic Fibrosis.

This WILL be a long post so please please please, be patient.
As most of you guys already know, I have Cystic Fibrosis. Some of you may know what that entails, but if you don’t and you’re thinking ”Well what the heck does that mean!?” or ”How do I even say that?!” That’s 100% OK! So I’ll start first a little bit about what the heck it means. :)
Firstly, Cystic Fibrosis (CF) is genetic. That means that it was passed down through genes in my family. I am the ONLY person in my entire family that has it…which in a way is kind of neat-o. My mother had one gene and my father had the other gene and then bada-bing-bada-boom, Cystic Fibrosis! Now, I am probably being a little too enthusiastic about this. The reason for that is because it doesn’t scare me, anymore. More about that later.

Cystic Fibrosis is NOT contagious! If I cough on you, you’re not going to grow a third arm or spontaneously combust. I actually used to have kids think I was a mutant because of some of the things I coughed up in elementary school. (Nasty discolored green yuckies.) The boys thought it was the coolest thing and always challenged me to loogy spittin’ contests (Which I always won, by the way. I know, I am such a princess.) The girls on the other hand…well, you know how they are.
Now I’m going to stop using words like ”yuckies” and get into the intense, grown up stuff.
Cystic Fibrosis is caused by a defective gene which causes the body to produce abnormally thick and sticky fluid, called mucus. This mucus builds up in the breathing passages of the lungs and in the pancreas, the organ that helps to break down and absorb food. This collection of sticky mucus results in life-threatening lung infections and serious digestion problems. The disease may also affect the sweat glands and a man’s reproductive system. Most children with CF are diagnosed by age 2. I was one of those children. A small number, however, are not diagnosed until age 18 or older. These patients usually have a milder form of the disease.

Cystic Fibrosis is progressive, so as you get older it gets worse. As of right now there is no cure for it, HOWEVER some people are able to take a medication that has recently been discovered called Kalydeco. If you are a mother or know someone that has CF, perhaps mention this to them if their doctor hasn’t already and see if they have the CF gene that the medicine can calm. How long you live really depends on how well you take care of yourself. My doctor (Katherine) puts it this way: ”Treatments right now are like life insurance. You feel fine now and you don’t feel like you need your treatments but later on down the road when you need new lungs, you’ll be thankful that you took all of those breathing treatments because you kept your lungs as healthy as you could for as long as you could.” So that’s why it’s important to take breathing treatments, and this big machine I have called ”The vest”. The vest shakes me and knocks some of the mucus loose that is stuck to my lungs too deep down to cough up. I have a very weakened immune system, so my body doesn’t produce Melatonin which is what your body produces throughout the day that makes you fall asleep at night. The effect of this is kind of bad. I have grown dependent on sleeping pills in the past, which at 19 isn’t the greatest thing. If I do not take sleeping pills, I just literally couldn't. Not for five minutes, not for ten. I just couldn't. Thankfully I overcame that. I had to force myself but I'm proud.

What it feels like: I really hope this doesn’t sound like I’m complaining. I’m not. I’m just trying to let you guys understand it better so that when I post about appointments, you guys don’t flip or something. It’s important to understand that people with Cystic Fibrosis do not have good lungs. I have the lungs of a woman who has smoked for years and I have never smoked a cigarette a day in my life. The best way I can explain to someone with normal, healthy lungs would be to tell them to cover their mouth completely with their hands and try to breathe through all of the small cracks in your hands. Or take a straw and try to breathe through it for ten minutes without stopping. That is how it feels for people with Cystic Fibrosis ALL THE TIME. Sometimes I catch myself mean mugging complete strangers when they walk by me puffing on a cigarette and then I have to remember that not everybody feels the way I feel. I’ve lost many friends that have Cystic Fibrosis and have three right now that are waiting for their turn to get a lung transplant.

Waiting for a lung transplant isn’t like waiting for your order at McDonald’s. It’s awful. It’s scary. It causes anxiety. No one can say ”Hi there order #284 your new lungs will be up in a second.” A donor has to die (Which is ALWAYS sad) in order for you to live. (Special shout out to all ya’ll donors out there, you guys are incredible!) Some CF patients die while waiting for their new lungs. It’s a terrible experience and my heart truly aches when things like that happen.
Another thing Cystic Fibrosis affects is my height. I’m 4’11 and a quarter of an inch. Pretty petite and cute, so that’s alright. But for all you suckas out there that call me short……………..I’M JUST MORE DOWN TO EARTH. ;)

As you can tell, I make a lot of jokes about it. That’s how I’ve learned to fit in with my peers. Growing up, I had a feeding tube in my stomach when I was diagnosed because I only weighed 14 lbs at age 2. I was very malnurished and if they didn’t do something soon, I was going to die. I never wore a bikini until the summer of my tenth grade year of high school. I was a one piece and a t-shirt kinda girl. I got my feeding tube taken out my 9th grade year. I had to beg them to take it out because I was going into high school and didn’t want people in gym to think I was a freak. After weeks of begging and pleading with my doctors, they agreed. Under one condition…eat like crazy. (Lucky me!) They took the feeding tube out and the hole left behind was supposed to ”close up on it’s own”. Yeah, bull hockey! I walked around with a hole in my stomach for an entire month, I kid you not, and anytime I drank anything, it came out of my stomach. Finally I was like ”Look, ya’ll. This is the tenth shirt that has been ruined by stomach acid, ya’ll have GOT to do something.” and the stomach acid was eating the skin around the hole in my stomach so they did a surgery and closed the hole up. My mom STILL has a video from me being doped up in my hospital bed while they rolled me away before surgery…and if she plays that for my senior banquet, I’m probably going to dissolve into the Earth. So now I just have a scar on my stomach and for people who ask what it’s from, I tell them I got shot. ;) They believe it because i’m pretty badout. Fact.

My doctors do have an estimate of how much longer I will live. I like to think of myself as someone who is pretty healthy for a person with Cystic Fibrosis because I have taken care of myself. Not only have I taken care of myself, but I have friends who will bite my head off if I skip a breathing treatment. Anyways, I do not know how much longer. My mother and I made it clear at a young age that it was not something that I wanted to know until I absolutely needed to know. (Unless I’m in need of a lung transplant, I don’t want to know.)

I get sick a lot, miss a lot of school, and I don’t get to be as active as most of my friends are. Growing up I did cheer and dance but my lungs got too bad to do that. But I can almost pinky promise you that I can still outdance anyone right off of a stage. :)

For all you debbie downers who are feeling sad right now, stop. As I mentioned previously, I’m not scared. I am a firm believer that God never gives anyone anything they’re not strong enough to handle and if God brings you to it, He’ll bring you through it. I have been more than blessed to be nineteen and be as healthy as I am, and I thank God every day for the breath to wake up every morning. All of this has only made me stronger.

You know those theme parks you can go to where you can buy tickets to jump to the front of the line to ride the ride first? Well, that’s exactly what Cystic Fibrosis is, my friends. It is not a curse, it is not a punishment. It is merely my ticket to jump to the front of the line to ride the ride first…only into Heaven. Not many people my age get to brag about being able to meet Jesus before everyone else.
I don’t want pity. I want you guys to know that I would not wish Cystic Fibrosis off of my life, ever. It has molded me and shaped me into an optimistic, bright young woman and I am proud of my mentality and my ability to speak strongly to those who have it and haven’t yet realized the beauty that lies beyond it.

If you read this whole thing, I genuienly thank you. It means more than you know. If anyone has ANY questions at all, please don’t hesitate to contact me on Twitter or if you want to do it privately, you can email me at 101onitgirl@gmail.com
Please be nice! Thank you for reading.

Is it time to get back with your ex?

Ending a relationship is one of the hardest things you’ll ever have to do. Sometimes, you may hold out hope that the cards will unfold and everything will work out in the end so you can get back with your ex. Other times, it’s best just to throw in the towel and walk away forever. But, how do you know if your past relationship holds hope for the future or if it’s time you each go your own way forever? How do you know whether or not it’s time to get back with your ex?

You don’t want to jump the gun and rekindle a relationship before you’re ready because that will likely lead to another break up. Before you decide to get back with your ex, there are some questions you’ll need to answer before you make a decision.

How has your relationship been as a whole?
Before you can decide whether or not it’s a good idea to get back with your ex, you need to look at your relationship as a whole. Were there more good times than bad? What was the reason the relationship ended? Was it in the heat of the moment or was there a final straw that broke the camel’s back? Has there been reoccurring issues?

The answers to these questions are very important. If your relationship has had a constant struggle with ups and downs over multiple issues, chances are you should walk away permanently. But, if the relationship has been fairly good and the split up was in the heat of the moment, chances are it’s ok to try to work things out.

Why do you want to get back together?
Your reasons to want to get back together are equally as important when trying to decide if you should get back with your ex. If you’re only doing it to make others happy, for the sake of the family or because you’re lonely, you need to reconsider your choice.

When trying to get back together, it’s best to try to be friends first to see if you’re able to rebuild the trust and forgive fully before taking it to the next level. Also, look at the actions, not the words. Anyone can say they are sorry or that they love you. You can promise things will be different. But, unless there are actions behind the words, don’t get back together until you see results.

When he leaves you.

It was your last big fight. And, man, it was a humdinger. You can remember every bloody, little detail. You may have even known it was coming. Yet, that doesn't make it any easier. Or maybe, he calmly sat you down and told you that he wanted to see other people. Even worse, he had already fallen for someone else. There is no scenario that makes breaking up easy to do.

Why are you feeling so bad?

Because it hurts! I miss him, you say. There is no denying it can be one of the most painful experiences in your life. However, there are other things at work. Besides feeling deeply hurt, it is also very common to feel angry. Any sort of rejection can make us feel worthless. After all, nobody likes to think that they weren't enough for another person. What am I? Chopped liver? What's so special about this other person? Why couldn't I make you happy? The questions are endless and most of them never get a proper answer. So as you sit mulling over by your miserable self, anger and pain go hand-in-hand. In fact, sometimes you may begin to feel like Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. One minute sobbing as you curl up in the fetal position and the next moment ready to commit a crime of passion. All of this intense emotion can leave you feeling exhausted and depressed.

Breakups are by no means easy, and often there is no way to avoid them. However, not every relationship that you have in life was meant to last forever.

Things to remember...

• Grief Is normal. So allow yourself to cry, cuss, even wallow on the ground until you get all those emotions out of your system.

• A breakup is a little bit like a death in the family. Understand the grief process. First there will be denial, then there will be anger and then comes bargaining. Next there will be depression. Finally, there will be acceptance. Don't be ashamed if you find yourself begging for him to come back in the middle of the night. This too shall pass. Eventually, you will get to the other side and be able to move on.

• Don't withdraw from those who care about you. No matter how much you'd like to roll up in a little ball and sleep indefinitely, you will need your friends and family.

• Find things to do and people to do things with as often as possible.

• Don't run out and start a new relationship right away. If you try to cover up your hurt with a new person, it is less likely to succeed.

• Get rid of anything lying around that apartment that reminds you of him.

One day, you will look back on this from a slightly different perspective, but until that happens just know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Time is on your side!

Secrets men keep

Women aren’t the only ones to have little secrets tucked away. Men have their own little dirty secrets too. Some of their secrets stare us right in the face. Others, we suspect but hope our man isn’t one of the guilty. Just like with women, the little secrets they keep have good intentions behind them. But lets face it, there are just some things neither sex needs to know about the other.

Yes…He Is Looking
You may not want to hear it, but yes he is checking out that other girl, and yes he probably thinks she’s pretty. Guys don’t have this internal switch that stops them from checking out other girls just because he’s in a relationship. Maybe he’s gotten slicker at taking a glance or two or maybe he’s doing it while you aren’t around, but either way, he’s still looking.

He Knows It’s a Test
As women, we often feel the need to give guys a little test every now and then, such as “does this dress make my butt look big?” or “sure, I don’t care if you go.” Men know we are testing them and will lie just to try to pass or make us mad. They know there’s no winning answer with some of our little tests. They know they are screwed either way, so sometimes they intentionally give the wrong answer just to make the test a little more interesting.

Too Much Togetherness
No matter how much you love cuddling and spending every waking moment with your guy, there is such a thing as too much togetherness. Even if he won’t admit it, there are times where he would avoid you if he could. Next time he wants to hang out with his buddies, but you want a nice evening at home, let him go out. Everyone needs a break from each other now and then.

Hair Matters
Even when guys don’t show it or play it off as a joke, going bald is a big insecurity for men. Sure, some may not care, but for the majority, they really do care about their hair, they just won’t show it. If you start to see a few more stray hairs on his shirts, be careful not to point it out.

Men aren’t really secretive creatures. They certainly have less secrets than women, but they do keep a thing or two from us. Men are much more likely to put it all out there than women, so it can be really hard to tell whether or not you guy has some secrets too.

You're single. So what?

Though you have probably convinced yourself to the contrary: Your life is not a romantic comedy, nor is it going to turn into one. Hugh Grant is not going to sweep into your living room, profess his love before falling down the stairs. You will not kiss romantically to the audience’s glee as he lies crumpled at the bottom of those steps. Men will probably not fight over you in a fountain.

Ever.

So now that this painful news is out of the way, let’s get down to business. Push your cat off your lap, get off the couch, put away the ice-cream and change out of your pajamas – there is a beautiful world out there that is yours for the taking – and you are going to take it alone and you are going to LIKE it! Why? Because guess what: It’s OK to be single.

Being single in today’s day and age carries with it a certain, and unfortunate, stigma. People assume “I’m single” means “I’m looking” or, even worse, “I have twenty cats and love them all more than any of my past boyfriends – who I perform voodoo rituals upon on a nightly basis.” Believe it or not, you could just be at a point in your life where a relationship would only be detrimental to your mental health. You have too much work, too much school, too much going on – and to top it all off, your boyfriend is whining that you never go out anymore. Well he can suck it up because your agenda is important too. There is nothing wrong with focusing on yourself for once – after all, you can’t truly love another person before you learn to love yourself. Being single isn’t a curse: it’s a sense of freedom – you have the freedom to go home when you please, look at who you please, and DO what you please. You don’t need to have someone to be someone.

So, girl, stop texting your ex back. Be as flirty as you want and then leave him hangin’. Go home early, get your crap done and then kick back and give yourself a facial. Go out with your friends. Ignore the creepers, the nay sayers. Stop looking at your cute couple friends with intense jealousy and revulsion – you’ll find that when you’re ready, or if you want to.

So stretch out in that big, comfortable and wonderfully empty bed and snore as loud as you want because girl, you are FREE.

Where does wishing get you?

Oh Cindy… Alright girls, crucify me if you wish, but I have never liked Cinderella. Well, okay, that’s a lie. I was her for Halloween in second grade when I had my blonde-hair phase. BUT, I have since purged that fairy-tale from my hypothetical book of girl doctrine. I mean, sure, I believe in Prince Charming and happy endings, but getting either by waiting around for them? No ma’am!

Sure, I know the proverb is ‘Good things come to those who wait’ not ‘Good things come to those who bust their butt to get them’ but really Cinderella? The only thing you did to get to that ball was feel sorry for yourself and you got lucky your friends took care of the rest. You had to have freaking mice make a dress for you! And then you let your ugly sisters tear it apart instead of fashionably high-tailing it out of that prison. You didn’t owe them anything! You could have gone and saved yourself but instead you moped and cried. Thank God you had a fairy godmother to do all the magical behind-the-scenes work for you. Otherwise, you’d still be stuck in that tower with your rodent friends pulling bread bits under the door and birds flying in the window to barf up worms to keep your sorry self alive. All this while your evil step-mother and sisters hired cheap labor to replace you.

Alright, maybe I’m over-inflating things and being a tad critical. Nevertheless, the moral I’m trying to get at is life can give you hand-outs and you can get by with enough luck and looks but for heaven’s sake, don’t insult yourself enough to just crumble when there’s a curve in the road. You are not only beautiful, you are TALENTED and you can have anything you work for. People can only feel sorry for someone that is acting helpless for so long until they get tired of spoon-feeding you and wish you’d do things for yourself.

So, here it is: I am now giving you full permission to take control of your own lives. Yes, take control. I know it can be a daunting prospect. It’s hard, straight up, but you can do it. The next job interview that falls through, the next breakup, the next period that ruins your favorite pair of pants: fight back! As soon as you take charge, you’ll not only feel better about yourself, but others will notice your strength. You don’t have to take crap from anyone. You don’t have to accept ordinary. You can work for extra-ordinary and GET IT!

The double standard on one night stands

It’s no secret there are a lot of double standards when it comes to men and women. Just one example is the double standard on one night stands. When a guy has a one night stand, he boasts about it to his pals and receives an ambush of high-fives. But, if a girl has a one night stand, she’s labeled a slut and often takes the walk of shame. Why is this? Sure, one night stands may not be the healthiest of lifestyle choices, but shouldn’t men and women be viewed equally on the subject? Why do men deserve a trophy and women receive shame from one night stands?

The double standard on one night stands is in large part due to society as society views men as dominant. It’s considered to be perfectly acceptable for men to seek out a woman, but if a woman seeks out a man, she’s considered to be desperate or slutty. Lets face it, guys aren’t the only ones with sexual needs. Why should they be able to enjoy a one night stand, but a women cannot? In this day and age, society needs to understand one night stands are common and they are going to happen. No gender should face the double standard of a one night stand.

Even long after the one night stands have occurred, the double standard stays in place. A man with a lengthy history of sexual partners rarely faces any negative judgment. But, a women with even a handful of past sexual partners is viewed as a whore and being easy. No matter if it’s 5 or 20, a women with a history of sexual partners is going to be judged unfairly and is sure to get the stink eye more than once.

So, what can you do if you have one night stands? Unfortunately, the stigma for women and one night stands isn’t going anywhere. If you enjoy one night stands and do so safely, you’re going to need to be prepared for the negativity you’re going to receive. Don’t believe the insults you get about being a slut, cheap, easy, unladylike and whatever else people will say. And, in the future, if you find a guy you want to settle down with he’ll be ok with your past. If he’s one of the people to be throwing around the insults towards you when he has a similar past, he’s clearly not the guy for you.

Is it okay to be jealous?

As women, we tend to be jealous by nature. We like what’s ours, we want what we want and we want to be the apple of our man’s eye every minute of every day. When we feel one of these things is being threatened, we react with jealousy and the claws come out. Sometimes, we are just being possessive, other times we are being mean or insecure, and honestly, sometimes we are just playing games. It’s not a bad thing to be jealous, but being overly jealous or reacting with jealousy in certain instances can cause serious problems in relationships. So, when is it okay to be jealous and not just act as another super sensitive female?

Insecurity is a huge factor that makes us to react with jealousy, whether we want to admit it or not. If your man is talking to a girl you think looks better than you, you need to step back and take a chill pill. You can’t stop him from talking to every woman that may look better than you. By reacting with jealousy, you’re just going to irritate him and push him away. If you keep it up, it may led to him dumping your or cheating on you because jealousy like this is just unattractive. So, bit your tongue and suck it up.

Hey, let’s be honest-- we like to play games. But, have you ever heard the saying, “play with fire and you’ll get burnt?” Well, it’s true. If you’re only reacting with jealousy or pretending to be jealous just to play games, you need to quit it before it blows up in your face.

This is equally as true if you aren’t being fair with your jealousy. If you’re doing the exact same things your boyfriend is doing, you have no right to be jealous. For example, you still have a few ex’s listed in your phone, who you text from time to time or you hang out with a guy friend occasionally, you can’t get mad or jealous if he’s doing the same thing. The playing field has to be equal if you’re going to be reacting with jealousy.

Like I said before, girls are terrible with insecurities-- whether it be about your looks, your car or past experiences. So, an ex cheated on you in the past and now any guy you’re with is instantly labeled as a potential cheater. As a result, you fly off the handle every time he looks at another girl or forgets to call you back one night. That’s your problem, not his. If you act with jealousy over these situations, you’re the one in the wrong. You can’t punish him because you have some issues from your past. You need to deal with those issues within yourself and not take them out on your man.

Some girls are just the jealous type and some aren’t. A little bit of jealousy is good in a relationship, but if it’s ruling your life, you need to take it down a notch before you destroy a good thing. It is okay to be jealous under the right circumstances, but you can’t be using it to play games or try to control the relationship because it will eventually backfire.

Does he really want to remain friends?

Ladies, we’ve all been there before. We’re in a relationship with a guy who we absolutely love and adore. We’re crazy over him, he feels the same about us and we can’t get enough of him. We tell ourselves he’s our future husband. We even visualize getting married, having babies, a white house and a picket fence. Then it seems as if one day everything goes south. We get that heartbreaking phone call, text message or inbox on Facebook that says he’s breaking up with you. I’ve been there, I know plenty of other females that been there and it’s no fun. Even if you eventually get over the pain, initially it’s treacherous. One of the worst things I hate about this scenario is when he then says - “can we at least remain friends?”

“Can we still be friends?” - is one of the most confusing questions I’ll never understand. If a guy wants to break up with you and feels it’s best to go separate ways then why stay in your life as a friend? This brings me to my million dollar question - does he really want to remain friends? I personally don’t believe a man and woman can honestly be platonic friends. Therefore, I definitely don’t think a man you were in a relationship with, in love with and possibly had sex with, can be just your friend. Why would he want to be your friend? Is it that he really wants to have his cake and eat it too? Does he plan on keeping you close for his own personal gain? Or does he just like the idea of always having you there as a plan b? Either way it’s selfish, unfair, cruel and manipulative. Bad enough he broke the poor girls’ heart. Now he wants to play games with it by telling her he wants to still be friends. I think that when a man says that he’s playing a game; and ladies when you fall for it you’re falling directly into his trap.

I understand some people will disagree with me both men and women. However, I have my reasons. First and foremost if you want to separate yourself from someone to one extent wouldn’t you want to separate yourself from them all ways around? Why put yourself in that awkward position? Why not make it easier on both parties and just part ways all ways around. Secondly, if she’s not good enough to be your girlfriend, what makes her so worthy of being your friend? My third reason is because of the confusion and mind games that come with that scenario. I know plenty of women who fall into the trap of staying friends and end up becoming more than a friend but never really a girlfriend. Or they end up constantly getting their heart broken by this man who keeps stringing them along. I, myself have been there. It’s easy to get caught up in that trap. But before you allow yourself to go there and risk getting hurt again just stop and think. Does he really want to remain friends? In their heart most females know the answer to that. Some even know the true intentions, but because she already has feelings for this man and want him in her life any way she can have him; she tells herself there’s nothing wrong with just being his friend. To the females that agree, enter at your own risk.

As for me, I learned from my mistakes.

Men VS Women

Men are like Bluetooth: He is connected to you when you are nearby but searches for other devices when you are away. Woman are like Wi-Fi: she sees all available devices but connects to the strongest one. 

You've lost her.

Her eyes don't light up when she hears your name, anymore. She doesn't get chills when you walk by and her heart doesn't race when you smile at her. You don't get to her like you used to. You're just a bad memory in the back of her mind...so don't be surprised next time you make your way past her and she doesn't even glance your way. And don't bother trying to talk to her, you won't get a response. She's over fighting the same losing battle. The saddest part is that you have no one to blame but yourself. She gave you every chance you could ask for and you messed up every time. Soon she'll walk around with nothing but a smile on her face and a laugh brighter than ever before. You've lost her.

You didn't love her.

You just didn't want to be alone. Or maybe, maybe she was just good for your ego. Or, or maybe she just made you feel better about your miserable life...but you didn't love her because you don't destroy people you love.

-Grey's Anatomy 

Moving! Change of plans.

I have an older sister who is 27. She's married to a man in the Navy. My brother in law was stationed in Maryland, and my sister was living in Pennsylvania. Recently, he got stationed an hour from where I live, in Florida. So my sister moved back! It has been an exciting experience because I have gotten closer to my two nephews since they have been back. My sister got approved for an apartment a mile from Jacksonville beach. Today we discussed me moving in with her when she moves on the 15th. My original plans were to move on the 14th to Tennessee and live with the guy I was dating, who's in the army and stationed in Kentucky. Anyways, that obviously didn't work out. I'm excited, though. I was dreading moving to Tennessee because there's no beach there and I live in Florida so the beach is what I'm used to. I mean, I live an hour away from it...but I still go pretty often. But I'm excited because I'll be living ONE MILE away from it. And that's amazing! I mean, that's bikini distance. I'll finally get to put my little yellow beach cruiser to work! I've been thinking about that and the fact that I'll be getting myself a nice tan. So I decided that on Monday I will put in my two weeks notice at my job and look for a job where I will be living and apply to colleges there instead of going in Tennessee. I will still be going to culinary school, that's my passion. But I'm just really excited about staying in Florida, now. Don't get me wrong, I would have dropped absolutely everything to be closer to my ex boyfriend. But things are different, now. I'm imagining finding myself a cute, tan, fit beach boy who knows how to treat me right and takes me on amazing dates. I'm not rushing into anything...but I'm super excited and feeling really optimistic about Jacksonville.